The Curse of love

In the silence of the night as she sat in front of her computer, disturbed from her sleep, she wondered in pain “Again?! Why?”

Her mind had raced through flashbacks of her past. Her first love, her second one and now… She wanted to so badly believe that the last two times had not been love. She couldn’t frame out a perfect reason why she stood alone and not married in the first place. Like every little girl, she had actually drawn out a guy that would completely sweep her off her feet. But she overlooked only one quality, a niche like anyone would see it – true love. Somehow it seemed to her, that she had mastered this from God whose truth was the power of love. In it, she fell to the clutches of fantasizing a world that ceased to exist as destiny held other plans. It felt not lesser than a glass shattering into pieces as it hit the floor for none cud find all the pieces or even fix it together. The first time she went through this feeling, she pledged that she wouldn’t thread this track again. That she would fight to ensure that love wouldn’t make her so weak n hostile and that she would accept a decisive natural course thrust upon her by her parents. But to her dismay, there was another. She mustered her courage to fight the society as her bread to live in love but then she found herself standing at the altar alone as the vows of marriage was pledged to someone else by her lover. Defeated and in great dismay, she looked beyond the feelings of her heart, killing every bit of herself to just live. But her calculative plan failed her again once more and this time she couldn’t take it anymore. She talked out loud that she was a victim of destiny and promised she wouldn’t hurt. Little did she realize that this man had come for her soul and that, it was the only thing left for her to trade. He healed the wounds of the past and taught her to dream. He had been the one she needed and the truth in his love held her close. But as she worked out her first dream and started to live in it, she was flashed with the reality that took off her sleep. She knew that love has been a curse to her that she often taught the world to love and spread it, opened the chapters to people who couldn’t believe but found herself alone and not tied down in love.

Closing her eyes and slowly wiping her tears, she spoke to God : I fail to understand why but when I do, I surely would never be able to love again!!